and all your food is frozen, it needs to be defrosted

I don't know what I was expecting but this, I believe, is Exactly it.
(the last entry would make more sense in this ones' stead)

I ask myself "Frinny, did you really think they'd accept you into the their company?" and, when the tinyiest little voice in the back of my head squeaks "yes", it breaks my heart anew every time.

*sigh*
Two weeks.
9:30 am, November 13th.. then I find some answers.